My spirit has been stirred within me to share this very short dream that I had on February 7, 2013.
I was sitting at a large, rectangular, hand hewn dining table. The only light in the room was a single, white, tapered candle in the center of the table, directly in front of me. The candle holder was black metal with a place to insert a finger so that it could be carried from one place to another. It had burned down so that only a third to a fourth of it, remained. I felt a presence come up behind me and, over my left shoulder, blew out the candle. The room was pitch black. The kind of darkness that can be felt. The kind that people experience in underground caves when the tour guides turn out the lights.
I wrote in the notes from that night that I was not sure if the presence behind me was the Ruach Ha 'Kodesh (Holy Spirit) who is referred to in Scripture as the breath of YHVH; (i.e. Genesis 2:7, Ezekiel 37:1-14, John 20:21-22, Acts 2:1-4) or if it was from the prince of darkness. But this much I am sure of, I KNEW WHO was in control and I had no fear of the presence or of the darkness. I also wrote that I felt strongly that Father was trying to warn me of an actual event. The dream felt factual and instructional in nature. Not just referring to the spiritual darkness that we see growing around us.
The interpretation that I got is that the table resembled that which could be seen anywhere in the world. The white contrasting with black made me think of the mixing His ways with the ways of the world. Holy with unholy. "20 Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!" Isaiah 5:20 KJV
As a result of these things happening, the world is increasingly dark. However, I knew there was more to it. As I stated, I believed that the dream was a warning of an actual event, but I didn't know what. Of course hearing about solar flares and a possible EMP blackout in the news made me wonder, but then this happened ...
A couple of days ago, I came upon a blog in which the woman wrote about an event that would bring three days of darkness upon the earth. She wrote about how those who are abiding in YHVH would be protected in their homes during those days while many strange things happened upon the earth. Her blog included a link to another blog where the woman wrote of the same kind of event. Both women wrote of how true believers will not only be protected, but ministered to in ways that prepare them for what lies ahead. All other people will be left in darkness for all three days. The condition of every soul will be made known to them. The people who are not walking in the Light will be given a chance to repent of their sins and come into the adoption that YHVH offers through the sacrifice of His only begotten Son, Yeshua, (Jesus) the Messiah.
When I read the messages these two women received, (and from what I have come to understand, they are not alone) of course I remembered the dream I had on February 7th. I went back to check my notes and my eyes widened when I read what I heard in my spirit as I awoke from it. "The earth has been plunged into darkness."
The Scriptures that came to me:
KJV
"21 And the Lord said to Moses, Stretch out thine hand toward heaven, that there may be darkness over the land of Egypt, even darkness which may be felt. 22 And Moses stretched forth his hand toward heaven; and there was a thick darkness in all the land of Egypt three days: 23 They saw not one another, neither rose any from his place for three days; but all the children of Israel had light in their dwellings."
Exodus 10:21-23
"7 I will bless the Lord, who hath given me counsel: my reins also instruct me in the night seasons."
Psalm 16:7
"7 Only be thou strong and very courageous, that thou mayest observe to do according to all the law, which Moses my servant commanded thee: turn not from it to the right hand or to the left, that thou mayest prosper whithersoever thou goest. 8 This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success. 9 Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest."
Joshua 1:7-9
"1 Here my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer. 2 From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I. 3 For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy. 4 I will abide in thy tabernacle for ever: I will trust in the covert of thy wings. Selah."
Psalm 61:1-4
"12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and light are both alike to thee."
Psalm 139:12
"33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world."
John 16:33
Please pray, asking Father for much discernment concerning this or any other thing you hear or watch or read during these days. Thank You.
May He continue to watch over you and fill you with wisdom and power from on high as you walk with Him in righteousness for His Namesake.
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Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Where Are You in this Dream?
On January 22, 2013, I had a dream where I was at a slumber party and standing in a darkened room facing a group of pajama clad, immature acting adults. They were childish in their antics. Glued to their cell phones, loud bursts of laughing and carrying on, behaving much younger than their years. I was fond of them and knew that their behavior was not entirely their fault so I had patience with them and had compassion on them.
Although this group was noisy and demanded attention, I could feel the presence of a man in the room to the right of me. Because the room was dimly lit, I could not see him but I could hear his voice and as I strained to listen, I knew that he was speaking to some of the people who had gathered around him. His teaching was full of truth and wisdom from the Scriptures. He was tenderhearted toward them, humble and kind. It was obvious that all of the adults were immature and needed the pure milk of the Word, but most seemed unaware of their need or they were not willing to receive it.
Behind me sat a woman resting on a chase lounge. She was the only one in a reclining position; everyone else in the room, stood. She was very thin, her complexion was pale, her head was down and her arms were limp at her sides. She was weak and appeared to be in the final stages of illness. She wore shoulder length, straight, jet black hair. She would not (could not?) raise her head to look at me. She wore a light blue pantsuit. I wore red, silk pajama pants and night shirt. Although she would not acknowledge me, I was not shy of her, neither was I offended by her. Instead, I had great compassion on her. I smiled and sat down beside her and waited for her to speak. Never lifting her head, she spoke of the kind man in a way that made me think that she had once loved him. Although I sat quietly beside her for some time, the only words I remember her speaking was when she weakly said, "He really cares for these people. He is such a sipe." She could not understand his depth of love for them.
I awoke. I tried to fall back to sleep but I could not. I prayed about the dream and wondered what a sipe was. I grabbed my phone and googled the definition. A sipe is a drain or a channel to drain and/or direct water.
The interpretation that came is that many in the church are immature in the faith. Slumbering when they should be wide awake. (1) They are unconcerned with the devil who is intent on destroying them. (2) The trappings of the world have them tied up in things and in themselves. All but the newborns in the faith should be taking in the meat of the Word but there are many will only accept small amounts of milk, having enough nourishment to survive but not to mature. They don't have the strength needed to face what is coming upon the earth. (3) They live for the appetites of their flesh to a degree that they don't posses the self-control needed to say no to their sin and are stunted in their growth. Behaving more like children than adults. (4) Thinking they are just fine and don't need a thing, not realizing that they are really pitiful. (5) My compassion on them was great because they were in desperate need of a shepherd. (6) Their immaturity was not entirely their own fault.
The presence of the man I felt but could not see, and could only hear if I strained to tune out the voices of the others and the noise in the room, (7) was filled of the Holy Spirit. He represented those in the church who are good shepherds and teachers who care for the flock, not as a hireling who cares nothing for the sheep. They impart pure milk and the meat of the Word of YHVH. (8) Streams of living water that are given to them from the Messiah flow from them, being directed to the precious few who will receive it. (9)
The woman who was reclining represents the apostate church. She was dressed in a pantsuit, not in pajamas, because she didn't intend to stay. Members of the apostate don't want to be around people who try to live according to the Father's instructions. Her clothing was light blue, which signifies heaven and the commands of YHVH. At one time she received the Word with joy, but then the cares of this present age and the evil in the world, she began to refuse the milk and the meat of the Word and to submit to YHVH's authority as given in Numbers 15:38-40, "Speak to the Israelites and say to them: 'Throughout the generations to come you are to make tassels on the corners of your garment, with a blue cord on each tassel. You will have these tassels to look at and so you will remember all the commands of the Lord, that you may obey them and not prostitute yourselves by chasing after the lusts of your own hearts and eyes. Then you will remember to obey all my commands and will be consecrated to your God." Instead she gave herself over to false teachings that tickled her ears. (10) On this descent, her thinking became darkened and her heart grew cold. (11) Her jet black hair represents the utter darkness of her spiritual death. (12)
I was dressed in pajamas because all of the virgins fell asleep, the foolish and the wise. (13) The color of the pajamas represents the blood of our Matchless Messiah that is still available for those who will call upon His Name in humble repentance. I sat down next to her to listen to her with His heart of forgiveness in an effort to draw her back to Him, but she refused. Her decision was made.
His heart still remains open if people will hear His voice and humble themselves before Him. (14)
KJV
(1)"44 And being in great agony he prayed more earnestly; and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground. 45 And when he rose up from prayer, and was come to his disciples, he found them sleeping for sorrow, 46 And he said to them, Why sleep ye? rise and pray, lest ye enter into temptation."
Luke 22:44-45
(2) "8 Be sober, vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:"
1 Peter 5:8
(3) "12 For when for the time ye ought to be teachers, ye have need that one teach you again which be the first principles of the oracles of God; and are become such as have need of milk, and not of strong meat. 13 For everyone that useth milk is unskilful in the word of righteousness; for he is a babe. 14 But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil."
Hebrews 5:12-14
(4) "11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things."
1 Corinthians 13:11
(5) "Because thou sayest, I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing; and knowest not that thou art wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked: 18 I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire, that thou mayest be rich; and white rainment, that thou mayest be clothed, and that the shame of thy nakedness do not appear; and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou mayest see. 19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent."
Revelation 3:17-19
(6) "10 The thief cometh not, but for the steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. 11 I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep. 12 But he that is an hireling, and not the shepherd, whose own sheep are not, seeth the wolf coming, and leaveth the sheep, and fleeth: and the wolf catcheth them, and scattereth the sheep. 13 The hireling fleethe, because he is an hireling, and careth not for the sheep.14 I am the good shepherd, and know my sheep, and am known of mine. 15 As the Father knoweth me, even so I the Father: and I lay down my life for the sheep. 16 And other sheep I have, which are not of this fold: them also I must bring, and they shall hear my voice; and there shall be one fold, and one shepherd."
John 10:10-16
By the way, Jeremiah 23 and Ezekiel 34 are still relevant!
(7) "11 And he said, go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake: 12 And after the earthquake a fire; but he Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice. 13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?"
1 Kings 19:11-13
(8) "2 Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine. 3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; 4 And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned to fables. 5 But watch thou in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, make full proof of thy ministry. 6 For I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand. 7 I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: 8 Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing."
2 Timothy 4:2-8
(9) "37 In the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried, saying, If any man thirst, let him come unto me, and drink. 38 He that believeth on me, as the scripture that said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water."
John 7:37-38
(10) "3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; 4 And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables."
2 Timothy 4:3-4
(11) "1 This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. 2 For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, 3 Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, dispisers of those that are good. 4 Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God."
2 Timothy 3:1-4
(12) "17 This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that ye henceforth walk not as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind, 18 Having the understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart:
2 Timothy 4:17-18
"23 But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!"
Matthew 6:23
(13) "5 While the bridegroom taried, they all slumbered and slept."
Matthew 25:5
(14) "1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness; according unto the multitude of they tender mercies blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I acknowledge my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me. 4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
"17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not dispise."
Psalm 51:1-4, 17
It probably goes without saying that this was one of the more difficult dreams Father has given to me. Within it, I was able to see three different groups of people within mainstream Christian churches in America, anyway. It also contained the representation of the atoning sacrifice of Messiah who longs to gather us unto Himself that where He is, we may be also. As the time of His crucifixion drew near, He ached over Jerusalem, saying, "O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, thou that killest the prophets, and stonest them which are sent unto thee, how often would I have gathered her children together, even as a hen gathers her chickens under her wings, and ye would not!" Matthew 23:37 KJV
His shed blood has not lost its power! His Word will never pass away; it is eternal! ALL He has said, will be accomplished!
Before it is too late, PLEASE, COME HOME TO HIS HEART!
Although this group was noisy and demanded attention, I could feel the presence of a man in the room to the right of me. Because the room was dimly lit, I could not see him but I could hear his voice and as I strained to listen, I knew that he was speaking to some of the people who had gathered around him. His teaching was full of truth and wisdom from the Scriptures. He was tenderhearted toward them, humble and kind. It was obvious that all of the adults were immature and needed the pure milk of the Word, but most seemed unaware of their need or they were not willing to receive it.
Behind me sat a woman resting on a chase lounge. She was the only one in a reclining position; everyone else in the room, stood. She was very thin, her complexion was pale, her head was down and her arms were limp at her sides. She was weak and appeared to be in the final stages of illness. She wore shoulder length, straight, jet black hair. She would not (could not?) raise her head to look at me. She wore a light blue pantsuit. I wore red, silk pajama pants and night shirt. Although she would not acknowledge me, I was not shy of her, neither was I offended by her. Instead, I had great compassion on her. I smiled and sat down beside her and waited for her to speak. Never lifting her head, she spoke of the kind man in a way that made me think that she had once loved him. Although I sat quietly beside her for some time, the only words I remember her speaking was when she weakly said, "He really cares for these people. He is such a sipe." She could not understand his depth of love for them.
I awoke. I tried to fall back to sleep but I could not. I prayed about the dream and wondered what a sipe was. I grabbed my phone and googled the definition. A sipe is a drain or a channel to drain and/or direct water.
The interpretation that came is that many in the church are immature in the faith. Slumbering when they should be wide awake. (1) They are unconcerned with the devil who is intent on destroying them. (2) The trappings of the world have them tied up in things and in themselves. All but the newborns in the faith should be taking in the meat of the Word but there are many will only accept small amounts of milk, having enough nourishment to survive but not to mature. They don't have the strength needed to face what is coming upon the earth. (3) They live for the appetites of their flesh to a degree that they don't posses the self-control needed to say no to their sin and are stunted in their growth. Behaving more like children than adults. (4) Thinking they are just fine and don't need a thing, not realizing that they are really pitiful. (5) My compassion on them was great because they were in desperate need of a shepherd. (6) Their immaturity was not entirely their own fault.
The presence of the man I felt but could not see, and could only hear if I strained to tune out the voices of the others and the noise in the room, (7) was filled of the Holy Spirit. He represented those in the church who are good shepherds and teachers who care for the flock, not as a hireling who cares nothing for the sheep. They impart pure milk and the meat of the Word of YHVH. (8) Streams of living water that are given to them from the Messiah flow from them, being directed to the precious few who will receive it. (9)
The woman who was reclining represents the apostate church. She was dressed in a pantsuit, not in pajamas, because she didn't intend to stay. Members of the apostate don't want to be around people who try to live according to the Father's instructions. Her clothing was light blue, which signifies heaven and the commands of YHVH. At one time she received the Word with joy, but then the cares of this present age and the evil in the world, she began to refuse the milk and the meat of the Word and to submit to YHVH's authority as given in Numbers 15:38-40, "Speak to the Israelites and say to them: 'Throughout the generations to come you are to make tassels on the corners of your garment, with a blue cord on each tassel. You will have these tassels to look at and so you will remember all the commands of the Lord, that you may obey them and not prostitute yourselves by chasing after the lusts of your own hearts and eyes. Then you will remember to obey all my commands and will be consecrated to your God." Instead she gave herself over to false teachings that tickled her ears. (10) On this descent, her thinking became darkened and her heart grew cold. (11) Her jet black hair represents the utter darkness of her spiritual death. (12)
I was dressed in pajamas because all of the virgins fell asleep, the foolish and the wise. (13) The color of the pajamas represents the blood of our Matchless Messiah that is still available for those who will call upon His Name in humble repentance. I sat down next to her to listen to her with His heart of forgiveness in an effort to draw her back to Him, but she refused. Her decision was made.
His heart still remains open if people will hear His voice and humble themselves before Him. (14)
KJV
(1)"44 And being in great agony he prayed more earnestly; and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground. 45 And when he rose up from prayer, and was come to his disciples, he found them sleeping for sorrow, 46 And he said to them, Why sleep ye? rise and pray, lest ye enter into temptation."
Luke 22:44-45
(2) "8 Be sober, vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:"
1 Peter 5:8
(3) "12 For when for the time ye ought to be teachers, ye have need that one teach you again which be the first principles of the oracles of God; and are become such as have need of milk, and not of strong meat. 13 For everyone that useth milk is unskilful in the word of righteousness; for he is a babe. 14 But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil."
Hebrews 5:12-14
(4) "11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things."
1 Corinthians 13:11
(5) "Because thou sayest, I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing; and knowest not that thou art wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked: 18 I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire, that thou mayest be rich; and white rainment, that thou mayest be clothed, and that the shame of thy nakedness do not appear; and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou mayest see. 19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent."
Revelation 3:17-19
(6) "10 The thief cometh not, but for the steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. 11 I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep. 12 But he that is an hireling, and not the shepherd, whose own sheep are not, seeth the wolf coming, and leaveth the sheep, and fleeth: and the wolf catcheth them, and scattereth the sheep. 13 The hireling fleethe, because he is an hireling, and careth not for the sheep.14 I am the good shepherd, and know my sheep, and am known of mine. 15 As the Father knoweth me, even so I the Father: and I lay down my life for the sheep. 16 And other sheep I have, which are not of this fold: them also I must bring, and they shall hear my voice; and there shall be one fold, and one shepherd."
John 10:10-16
By the way, Jeremiah 23 and Ezekiel 34 are still relevant!
(7) "11 And he said, go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake: 12 And after the earthquake a fire; but he Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice. 13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?"
1 Kings 19:11-13
(8) "2 Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine. 3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; 4 And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned to fables. 5 But watch thou in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, make full proof of thy ministry. 6 For I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand. 7 I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: 8 Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing."
2 Timothy 4:2-8
(9) "37 In the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried, saying, If any man thirst, let him come unto me, and drink. 38 He that believeth on me, as the scripture that said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water."
John 7:37-38
(10) "3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; 4 And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables."
2 Timothy 4:3-4
(11) "1 This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. 2 For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, 3 Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, dispisers of those that are good. 4 Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God."
2 Timothy 3:1-4
(12) "17 This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that ye henceforth walk not as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind, 18 Having the understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart:
2 Timothy 4:17-18
"23 But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!"
Matthew 6:23
(13) "5 While the bridegroom taried, they all slumbered and slept."
Matthew 25:5
(14) "1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness; according unto the multitude of they tender mercies blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I acknowledge my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me. 4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
"17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not dispise."
Psalm 51:1-4, 17
It probably goes without saying that this was one of the more difficult dreams Father has given to me. Within it, I was able to see three different groups of people within mainstream Christian churches in America, anyway. It also contained the representation of the atoning sacrifice of Messiah who longs to gather us unto Himself that where He is, we may be also. As the time of His crucifixion drew near, He ached over Jerusalem, saying, "O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, thou that killest the prophets, and stonest them which are sent unto thee, how often would I have gathered her children together, even as a hen gathers her chickens under her wings, and ye would not!" Matthew 23:37 KJV
His shed blood has not lost its power! His Word will never pass away; it is eternal! ALL He has said, will be accomplished!
Before it is too late, PLEASE, COME HOME TO HIS HEART!
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
An Anniversary Gift - My Testimony
On October 13, 1978, I became new! My bondage to sin and the desire to die came to an end when a friend literally stopped me on the street and emphatically told me to, "Go to church and pray!" I thought she was nuts! I had absolutely no desire to go to church. I had even less desire to pray. However, she insisted and stood in my way until I agreed. She didn't know it at the time but I had left school that day to finish what I had attempted the night before. My suicide. I thought I would go to the church to tell Him what I thought of my life, and then leave to wrap my car around a tree. He had an entirely different plan for my day ...and for the rest of my life.
I walked in the back of the Catholic church I had attended from the time I was a few days old. My friend's shoes were clicking on the marble floors behind me. I could smell incense in the air. A funeral must have taken place that morning. How poetic I think, in looking back. Little did I know that another funeral, this time a death to the ways of sin, would soon begin.
I knelt down in front of the statue of Mary and the rows of candles that were lined up before it. Moving my head up and to the right, I looked at the face of the statue of the One who had died for the sins of all mankind. As my eyes traveled over it, a priest walked in a side door of the church. He glanced at me and proceeded to walk down the stairs to have hot lunch with the students who attended the church's grade school. Seeing him caused a memory to come rushing back at me. A memory of something that had taken place two years earlier but was so vivid in my mind that it could have easily taken place that very morning ...
...Suddenly I was back in the center of a classroom. It was a Wednesday night and about thirty students were in CCD class. The priest (the one who had just walked down the stairs) was writing something on the board. I don't recall if we were on the subject of eternal life or not, but I called out his name in the form of a question. With his back still turned to me, he responded, "Yes, Sue." I asked, "What do I have to do in order to know that when I die that I will go to heaven?" He stopped writing, put the chalk down on the tray, turned to me and smiled, asking, "You love God, don't you?" I puffed air through my lips and answered, "Yeah.", thinking, "Who doesn't?" For my entire life I had been told, "We were all God's children. We're all members of His family.", so I figured the least we could do in return was to "love" Him. He continued, "Then don't worry about it, you will go to heaven." You could have heard a pin drop in the room. As far as my peripheral vision could see, every eye was on me. Somewhere deep inside, truth welled up in me. I put my hands on the desk, shoved my chair back hitting the desk behind me, crossed my arms, and right out loud, said, "BULL!" The priest smiled, looked down and continued on with his lesson as though nothing had happened.
With that memory in my mind I looked back at the statue and motioning in the direction of the stairs, I said, "He said if I loved You, everything would be okay. Well my life is a mess! And You are a hypocrite!" I hung my head. I don't know if I did it myself, or if it was hung for me. But I know I felt intense guilt. Something I hadn't allowed myself to feel for at least a couple of years. My body began to shake with sobs. I cried out how sorry I was! How sorry I was for everything! I asked Him to please forgive me! I told Him if He was real and could really hear me, that I wanted my sins to be wiped away. My mind pictured a chalk board with all my sins listed on it. I asked that all the sins be washed away with water, not just an eraser because I never wanted to see them again. I asked Him for a new start. A new life. And that I would give Him two weeks to see changes taking place, or I would make the change myself. Meaning my death.
Before you judge my "sinner's prayer" know that I no idea what I was doing. I prayed what came to me. Exactly what was inside of me is what came out of my mouth. It wasn't pretty, but it was real. And I meant it with all of my heart. And "apparently" He heard because I didn't have to wait two weeks to begin seeing changes; they were starting right there as I knelt; a sobbing mess of humanity.
It took awhile but I finally stood to my feet, and as we walked back down the aisle of the church, my friend trotted beside me. I couldn't help but smile at her. Her actions reminded me of my mother's Chihuahua as her shoes patted the floor and she repeatedly asked, "What happened?! I know something happened! What happened?!" We opened the back door of the church and I held up my hand to her, asking her for a minute to collect my thoughts. We sat down on the curb when we came to the end of the block and I told her, "I am not sure what just happened, but I know that something did. I know that I am different. I'm clean. I am a little scared because I don't know what the future holds, but I know that I can never go back."
That was thirty five years ago last Sunday. Do I regret coming to Him? Not one SECOND! My worst days walking with Him in NO WAY compare to the HOPELESSNESS that I had without Him! NO WAY! Would I respond to His call again? A THOUSAND TIMES, YES!!!! WITH ALL MY HEART!!! WITH ALL MY SOUL!!! WITH ALL MY STRENGTH!!! WITH ALL MY MIND!!! YES!!!
I got to spend Sunday night with my three most favorite people; my husband and my children. We went to a Sons of Korah concert in our area. Their music is composed from the Psalms and touches my soul, deeply. As I sat with my eyes closed and my hands raised, I heard His Beautiful Voice in my spirit, say, "Thank You for entering into the music with Me." The Creator of all that we can and cannot see, thanked me for joining Him in His praise. A holy hush surrounds me as tears fill my eyes with the memory of that moment on Our Anniversary. "I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine ..." Song of Solomon 6:3a
I walked in the back of the Catholic church I had attended from the time I was a few days old. My friend's shoes were clicking on the marble floors behind me. I could smell incense in the air. A funeral must have taken place that morning. How poetic I think, in looking back. Little did I know that another funeral, this time a death to the ways of sin, would soon begin.
I knelt down in front of the statue of Mary and the rows of candles that were lined up before it. Moving my head up and to the right, I looked at the face of the statue of the One who had died for the sins of all mankind. As my eyes traveled over it, a priest walked in a side door of the church. He glanced at me and proceeded to walk down the stairs to have hot lunch with the students who attended the church's grade school. Seeing him caused a memory to come rushing back at me. A memory of something that had taken place two years earlier but was so vivid in my mind that it could have easily taken place that very morning ...
...Suddenly I was back in the center of a classroom. It was a Wednesday night and about thirty students were in CCD class. The priest (the one who had just walked down the stairs) was writing something on the board. I don't recall if we were on the subject of eternal life or not, but I called out his name in the form of a question. With his back still turned to me, he responded, "Yes, Sue." I asked, "What do I have to do in order to know that when I die that I will go to heaven?" He stopped writing, put the chalk down on the tray, turned to me and smiled, asking, "You love God, don't you?" I puffed air through my lips and answered, "Yeah.", thinking, "Who doesn't?" For my entire life I had been told, "We were all God's children. We're all members of His family.", so I figured the least we could do in return was to "love" Him. He continued, "Then don't worry about it, you will go to heaven." You could have heard a pin drop in the room. As far as my peripheral vision could see, every eye was on me. Somewhere deep inside, truth welled up in me. I put my hands on the desk, shoved my chair back hitting the desk behind me, crossed my arms, and right out loud, said, "BULL!" The priest smiled, looked down and continued on with his lesson as though nothing had happened.
With that memory in my mind I looked back at the statue and motioning in the direction of the stairs, I said, "He said if I loved You, everything would be okay. Well my life is a mess! And You are a hypocrite!" I hung my head. I don't know if I did it myself, or if it was hung for me. But I know I felt intense guilt. Something I hadn't allowed myself to feel for at least a couple of years. My body began to shake with sobs. I cried out how sorry I was! How sorry I was for everything! I asked Him to please forgive me! I told Him if He was real and could really hear me, that I wanted my sins to be wiped away. My mind pictured a chalk board with all my sins listed on it. I asked that all the sins be washed away with water, not just an eraser because I never wanted to see them again. I asked Him for a new start. A new life. And that I would give Him two weeks to see changes taking place, or I would make the change myself. Meaning my death.
Before you judge my "sinner's prayer" know that I no idea what I was doing. I prayed what came to me. Exactly what was inside of me is what came out of my mouth. It wasn't pretty, but it was real. And I meant it with all of my heart. And "apparently" He heard because I didn't have to wait two weeks to begin seeing changes; they were starting right there as I knelt; a sobbing mess of humanity.
It took awhile but I finally stood to my feet, and as we walked back down the aisle of the church, my friend trotted beside me. I couldn't help but smile at her. Her actions reminded me of my mother's Chihuahua as her shoes patted the floor and she repeatedly asked, "What happened?! I know something happened! What happened?!" We opened the back door of the church and I held up my hand to her, asking her for a minute to collect my thoughts. We sat down on the curb when we came to the end of the block and I told her, "I am not sure what just happened, but I know that something did. I know that I am different. I'm clean. I am a little scared because I don't know what the future holds, but I know that I can never go back."
That was thirty five years ago last Sunday. Do I regret coming to Him? Not one SECOND! My worst days walking with Him in NO WAY compare to the HOPELESSNESS that I had without Him! NO WAY! Would I respond to His call again? A THOUSAND TIMES, YES!!!! WITH ALL MY HEART!!! WITH ALL MY SOUL!!! WITH ALL MY STRENGTH!!! WITH ALL MY MIND!!! YES!!!
I got to spend Sunday night with my three most favorite people; my husband and my children. We went to a Sons of Korah concert in our area. Their music is composed from the Psalms and touches my soul, deeply. As I sat with my eyes closed and my hands raised, I heard His Beautiful Voice in my spirit, say, "Thank You for entering into the music with Me." The Creator of all that we can and cannot see, thanked me for joining Him in His praise. A holy hush surrounds me as tears fill my eyes with the memory of that moment on Our Anniversary. "I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine ..." Song of Solomon 6:3a
Monday, October 14, 2013
HIS Ways or Ours?
As I sit here this evening, I am asking Elohim to make this message His own. I pray that He will anoint it and go before it in order to touch receiving hearts with His truth. That's all that matters to me. Truly. It is my prayer that in His own unique way, you will be assured of that.
We don't like to think about such things, but life as we have known it is drawing to a close and just like a person who knows that they are approaching the end of their days, I cannot help but look back over my life and wonder how much of what I thought I was doing for Him will one day be burned up as wood, hay, and straw?(1) I have grieved because I know that there's nothing that I can do to go back and choose differently. I can't go back and choose more time with Him, more truths from Him. I can't restore the "free" time that I've wasted on the attractions (and distractions) of this world, but this much I know; I know that I don't want to waste one more day. Not one more word. I don't want to miss another opportunity to spend with Him in study of His Word, in prayer, or in worship. And I don't want to be silent when He wants me to speak. What we glean from sitting at His feet cannot be compared with anything else that this world has to offer. So whether you think that we are in the end of days or not, it must be agreed that each of us are drawing closer to the ends of our days. The logical question then becomes, "What will we do with the time that we have left?" Will we continue living our lives as my husband and I were, simply assuming that all is well with our souls? Will we humble ourselves before our heavenly Father and consider the possibility that we might not have it all figured out? That maybe not everything is as we have been told? Will we search the Scriptures for the ancient paths (2) and truly learn what it is to know and to follow after our Savior, (3) to walk as HE walked, (4) or will we refuse and continue down the paths of mere men? (5)
Oh, my Precious Brethren, if ever there was a time to get serious about what we believe and how we are living, it's now.
(1) "11 For no one can lay a foundation other than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ. 12 Now if anyone builds on the foundation of gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw - 13 each one's work will become manifest, for the Day will disclose it, because it will be revealed by fire, and the fire will test what sort of work each one has done. 14 If the work that anyone has built on the foundation survives, he will receive a reward. 15 If anyone's work is burned up, he will suffer loss, though he himself will be saved, but only as through fire." 1 Cortinthians 3:11-15 ESV
(2) "10 'To whom shall I speak and give warning, that they hear? Behold, their ears are uncircumcised, they cannot listen, behold, the word of the Lord is to them as an object of scorn, they take no pleasure in it.'
"16 Thus says the Lord: 'Stand by the roads, and look, and ask for the ancient paths, where the good way is, and walk in it, and find rest for your souls.' But they said, 'We will not walk in it.' 17 Therefore hear, O nations, and know O congregation, what will happen to them. 18 Hear, O earth; behold, I am bringing disaster upon this people, the fruit of their devices, because they have not paid attention to my words; and as for my law, they have rejected it.' " Jeremiah 6:10 and 16-18 ESV
(3) "34 And calling the crowd to him with his disciples he said to them, 'If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 35 For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul? 37 For what can a man give in return for his soul? 38 For whoever is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him will the son of man also be ashamed when he comes in the glory of his Father with the holy angels.' " Mark 8:34-38 ESV
(4) "1 My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous. 2 He is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the sins of the whole world. 3 And by this we know that we have come to know him, if we keep his commandments. 4 Whoever says 'I know him' but does not keep his commandments is a liar, and the truth is not in him, 5 but whoever keeps his word, in him truly the love of God is perfected. By this we may know that we are in him: 6 Whoever says he abides in him ought to walk in the same way in which he walked." 1 John 2:1-6 ESV
(5) "There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death." Proverbs 14:12 ESV
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
The Guest
On December 19, 2012, I had a dream in which my husband and I were dressed in white and stood in our dining room preparing for company. I smiled as we looked at the table where the place settings were complete and the candles were lit. Steam was rising from a platter of roast beef that I held with my left hand and rested on my forearm. The platter was gleaming white and trimmed in gold. Although the meat looked wonderful, I was perplexed because I couldn't smell it.
As I turned to place the platter on the buffet, I found that the top of the cabinet was completely covered and piled approximately twelve inches high with papers. My husband and I looked at each other with shocked and anxious expressions because our buffet cabinet never looks like that. We didn't speak to each other but by the expression on his face I am pretty certain that he was wondering along with me, how those papers got there? As I stood holding the platter of meat, I anxiously looked at the front door while he started to remove the papers from the cabinet. I knew that the guest would be arriving soon. I awoke from the dream hearing in my spirit, "Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If any man hear my voice and open the door, I will come in and sup with him and he with me." Revelation 3:20
The interpretation was similar to the dream I had the night before about the warehouse. Everything appeared to be fine. We were clothed in white, signifying that we are His children. We were living what we thought were honest lives before Him. Obviously we thought that everything was ready and we were prepared to meet our Guest. We deluded ourselves because in reality, there was clutter; the false teachings of the world and the traditions of men, along with some of our own thoughts on those matters, that covered the very surface where we were supposed to place and then serve the meat of the Word. With our senses being "off" we didn't even notice the clutter or know how it got there. It was indeed like it was all just given to us. Passed down. So we faced each other with a decision to make. The Guest would soon be arriving. Finding out how the clutter got there and who was responsible for it would have to wait. As for that night, we didn't have time to do anything constructive about our discovery but to clear it away, dispose of it, and begin the process of replacing it with meat.
As I turned to place the platter on the buffet, I found that the top of the cabinet was completely covered and piled approximately twelve inches high with papers. My husband and I looked at each other with shocked and anxious expressions because our buffet cabinet never looks like that. We didn't speak to each other but by the expression on his face I am pretty certain that he was wondering along with me, how those papers got there? As I stood holding the platter of meat, I anxiously looked at the front door while he started to remove the papers from the cabinet. I knew that the guest would be arriving soon. I awoke from the dream hearing in my spirit, "Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If any man hear my voice and open the door, I will come in and sup with him and he with me." Revelation 3:20
The interpretation was similar to the dream I had the night before about the warehouse. Everything appeared to be fine. We were clothed in white, signifying that we are His children. We were living what we thought were honest lives before Him. Obviously we thought that everything was ready and we were prepared to meet our Guest. We deluded ourselves because in reality, there was clutter; the false teachings of the world and the traditions of men, along with some of our own thoughts on those matters, that covered the very surface where we were supposed to place and then serve the meat of the Word. With our senses being "off" we didn't even notice the clutter or know how it got there. It was indeed like it was all just given to us. Passed down. So we faced each other with a decision to make. The Guest would soon be arriving. Finding out how the clutter got there and who was responsible for it would have to wait. As for that night, we didn't have time to do anything constructive about our discovery but to clear it away, dispose of it, and begin the process of replacing it with meat.
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
It's Time to Throw Out ALL of the Trash
In December of 2012, I had a dream in which my husband and I were in a warehouse. It was newer facility that was well maintained and brightly lit. I was walking parallel to him to his right while he drove a forklift to my left. We were going lengthwise along the right side of the building. Leaning against the wall, were large capacity, white, trash bags. They were odorless and appeared to be filled with paper material. They literally received only a passing notice from me. It wasn't my trash and I hadn't put them there so I felt no responsibility to dispose of them.
My husband pulled ahead of me a ways and then turned the forklift to the right. I stopped walking to look at him. He slowly pulled forward, forcing me to step back, closer to the bags. Then he stopped the forklift. My husband is a very good man and I had no fear as I looked at him. However I knew that he was serious, and his maneuver was intentional. It occurred to me that him sitting there in an enclosed forklift, gave him the appearance of being seated upon a throne. Having backed up closer to the bags, I looked around me to find that they surrounded me on three sides.
I woke up from the dream hearing in my spirit, "Do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewal of your mind." This verse is found in Romans 12. The entire verse reads, "2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." ESV
The interpretation I received was that things are not always as they appear. The facility was bright and clean. Even the trash bags were not soiled or offensive. They didn't bother me and I continued to walk right by them until a man seated upon a "throne" gently but intentionally made me aware of what really surrounded me.
If we are honest, we will admit that there isn't much difference between a typical Christian and the rest of society. Some of the things we allow into our lives are obviously trash. Things we are convicted about. Things we wouldn't want anyone else to know about and would be ashamed of if they did. Things we do in the dark in a feeble attempt to hide our actions. Other things are more subtle, even oblivious to us. Things we say or think or do that don't give us so much as a twinge of guilt. Things like inoffensive, barely noticeable, white trash bags that little known to us are filled with false teachings and patterns of this world handed down to us by demons. We don't even know the danger of some of the things we have bought in to. We continue to walk along unbothered by what surrounds us, until He intentionally makes us aware. Then, my brethren, we are left with a choice. Do we continue to walk in the patterns and false teachings of this world or will we allow Him to transform our minds through the study of His Word and the power of His Holy Spirit so that we are honestly able to, "discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect."?
The truth is is that it doesn't matter how things appear to us; what bothers us or doesn't bother us. The only thing that matters at all is not how things appear but how they actually are and what they mean to the Only Holy and Righteous Judge. In the end we will not judge ourselves against the teachings, behavior, or thoughts of one another. Then, the only standard of evaluation will be how closely we followed HIS teachings as modeled through His Only Begotten Son.
It's time to throw out ALL of the trash.
My husband pulled ahead of me a ways and then turned the forklift to the right. I stopped walking to look at him. He slowly pulled forward, forcing me to step back, closer to the bags. Then he stopped the forklift. My husband is a very good man and I had no fear as I looked at him. However I knew that he was serious, and his maneuver was intentional. It occurred to me that him sitting there in an enclosed forklift, gave him the appearance of being seated upon a throne. Having backed up closer to the bags, I looked around me to find that they surrounded me on three sides.
I woke up from the dream hearing in my spirit, "Do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewal of your mind." This verse is found in Romans 12. The entire verse reads, "2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." ESV
The interpretation I received was that things are not always as they appear. The facility was bright and clean. Even the trash bags were not soiled or offensive. They didn't bother me and I continued to walk right by them until a man seated upon a "throne" gently but intentionally made me aware of what really surrounded me.
If we are honest, we will admit that there isn't much difference between a typical Christian and the rest of society. Some of the things we allow into our lives are obviously trash. Things we are convicted about. Things we wouldn't want anyone else to know about and would be ashamed of if they did. Things we do in the dark in a feeble attempt to hide our actions. Other things are more subtle, even oblivious to us. Things we say or think or do that don't give us so much as a twinge of guilt. Things like inoffensive, barely noticeable, white trash bags that little known to us are filled with false teachings and patterns of this world handed down to us by demons. We don't even know the danger of some of the things we have bought in to. We continue to walk along unbothered by what surrounds us, until He intentionally makes us aware. Then, my brethren, we are left with a choice. Do we continue to walk in the patterns and false teachings of this world or will we allow Him to transform our minds through the study of His Word and the power of His Holy Spirit so that we are honestly able to, "discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect."?
The truth is is that it doesn't matter how things appear to us; what bothers us or doesn't bother us. The only thing that matters at all is not how things appear but how they actually are and what they mean to the Only Holy and Righteous Judge. In the end we will not judge ourselves against the teachings, behavior, or thoughts of one another. Then, the only standard of evaluation will be how closely we followed HIS teachings as modeled through His Only Begotten Son.
It's time to throw out ALL of the trash.
The Beginning of Dreams and Visions
One of the ways in which Father has been revealing things to me is through the use of dreams and visions. Through the years there has been a dream here or there that came from Him that I have known to be significant, but for the past year, they have increased and have contained greater revelation. I write them down, pray over them, and receive interpretation and Scriptural confirmation. Some relate to my family and me, others have a wider scope and have revealed some future events. I have asked Him a few times what I was supposed to do with them and He has told me that I would know. I realize now that part of the reason for this blog is to share some of them with you.
It is important for me that you know that I didn't desire them. I didn't ask for them. It was honestly when I began to hunger for deeper understanding of the Bible and prayed for greater wisdom and discernment, that the dreams and visions began as well. That being said however, I wasn't really surprised when they started coming to me. Probably because I know from the book of Joel chapter two, that these things were prophesied as being part of what would occur in the last days. I could include the verses here, but I would much rather have you read the chapter for yourselves. Not only is it beautifully written, like a piece of poetry for His people that shows His faithful love and promises to every generation, but also because it contains rich prophetic warning that must be heeded because love without instruction and honest scales isn't love at all.
It is important for me that you know that I didn't desire them. I didn't ask for them. It was honestly when I began to hunger for deeper understanding of the Bible and prayed for greater wisdom and discernment, that the dreams and visions began as well. That being said however, I wasn't really surprised when they started coming to me. Probably because I know from the book of Joel chapter two, that these things were prophesied as being part of what would occur in the last days. I could include the verses here, but I would much rather have you read the chapter for yourselves. Not only is it beautifully written, like a piece of poetry for His people that shows His faithful love and promises to every generation, but also because it contains rich prophetic warning that must be heeded because love without instruction and honest scales isn't love at all.
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